Category Archives: lyrics

dearly departed


“Everything Dies Baby” is now live at Strange Horizons.

Besides the Bruce Springsteen song “Atlantic City,” I’d also like to point to “Behind Closed Doors,” the brilliant episode of Air Crash Investigation that spawned this story.

Put your makeup on

Fix your hair up pretty

And meet me tonight in Atlantic City


marine biology

Sea of MarmaraSze Tsung Leong: Sea of Marmara

“Lake Tahoe’s Lover” is now up at Fantasy Magazine!  It’s been waiting there for a year, but I still love this story.  A little more romantic/whimsical than most of what I write, but blame it on the Hudson River and my best friend’s old lake house that I used to spend summer weekends at growing up.  I love the picture they chose to accompany it.  Exactly how I pictured the lake (except with a few less trees).

Actually, I’ve never been to Lake Tahoe.  But I think it’s a lovely name for a lake.

Little fish. Big fish. Swimming in the water.
Come back here, man. Gimme my daughter.

PJ Harvey

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collateral damage

Nick Brandt: Zebras Crossing Lake, Ngorongoro Crater 2000

“On The Island” has been accepted by Cezanne’s Carrot. Something different, but the story’s also something different, and it’s been through quite a few drafts, so I’m pleased it’s seeing the light of day. I edited the last draft at the Consul General’s Residence in Surabaya and my boss asked me “I thought you’re supposed to write about what you know. What do you know about animal testing?” Not really anything personal, of course, but it is an issue I feel strongly about, and it’s my first really environmentalist story. it’s based on the true story of Vozrozdeniye Island, which I learned about in Weapons of Mass Destruction: the USSR used this island, filled with various animals, as a testing base for various biological weapons – it is now completely contaminated and is negatively impacting surrounding areas on the coasts of the Aral Sea.

Factoid: It’s split into 4 parts, and I named all 4 parts after Law & Order: Criminal Intent episodes. What a fan am I.

in pitch dark I go walking in your landscape, broken branches trip me as I speak

there’s always a siren singing you to shipwreck:steer away from these walls, we’d be a walking disaster

just cuz you feel it doesn’t mean it’s there… we are accidents waiting to happen

– Radiohead: “There There (The Boney King of Nowhere)”

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“Blind Spot” is up at Postcards From…  It’s from the Woody End, not Hell, which I am somewhat glad for, as I don’t really consider myself a horror writer.  Although I think mine is the “futuristic horror fantasy”.  That is pretty much what my novel-set Ilium is, futuristic horror fantasy.  I like that genre.

Allison by Jack Radcliffe

Jack Radcliffe: Alison

This story is somewhat autobiographical, but as I’ve said before, my writing has been profoundly affected by my life experience, and I can’t help but think this is natural.  When I was in high school, writing was instrumental in helping me think things through, to figure out what I believed.  It still is.  As Chandra Mohanty says, “The maps I draw are necessarily anchored in my own discontinuous locations.”  Suharto died this year and it frightens me how much of an impact he has had on my mother and I.

Also, the hammer in the story is largely inspired by “Hammer” by Sarah Blasko:

there’s a hole in the roof, and the dust that’s pouring through, means you want to build the world again from scratch/ cuz nothing moved means nothing’s found, but there’s a sadness in the sound, as the walls crack and the scenes change so fast/ if you had a hammer you would knock the whole thing down but tell me, how you build again with what is left of all you’ve spent?


modernization theory

I was born in 1987, but I wasn’t born in Paris.

Paris, 1987

Jean Pascal Imsand: Paris, 1987.

She came into the room
Didn’t know her name
How I danced inside
No one to confide
In the darkest winter
I made a sound like a long lost humming bird

– “Cloudberries”: Super Furry Animals